Do you remember when I first asked you to get a cup of coffee after work, when we worked at Barnes and Nobel? And when we drove that same night to Providence, and we saw Sage Francis at AS220? Do you remember when we saw your old boss there from Epitaph, and soon we left and walked through the tunnel of all those collages, of hearts, and thoughts of healing? You took pictures of each of those hearts, each tile of hope. I believe that was the first time I said I loved you. It was not unlike today, when my friend Tuck and I, and his crazy girlfriend, went to a halloween party, where you were dressed as a butterfly. You looked so beautiful. And do you remember when that very next year, when you moved away to California, and you worked at Doghouse records, and I came and visited you. Soon after that I got a tattoo at Venice Beach, where the biker gangs, and graffiti artists ruled supreme.

I was scared before I met you. I had an empty feeling in my heart. I was broken, battered, my mind bruised. But when I was with you, you made me feel better. I felt special. You cured me. And do you remember soon after that Venice Beach excursion, and the trip to Hollywood Boulevard, my first time at Amoeba, and Tuck and his brother taking the trip up to visit us, from Salt Lake? I swear those few days were some of the best of my life.

It was in October five years ago, when I flew to L.A, and we drove home 3000 miles, to start a new life together. Five years ago today, we said, I love you, and I will never let you go. The last five years of my life, have been the best. I gained my confidence, I gained love, and I found my best friend. It was five years ago today, that I said I love you. Let’s go home. It was also five years ago today, when the Red Sox won their first world series in over 8 decades. Lisa, I love you so much.

Not only are you my girlfriend, but my best friend. You believed in me when I said school was too tough, and I would never get through it. Well, eventually I did. And it has alot to do with you, and the faith you have in me. You make me smile, and laugh, and I love loving you. We have been through it all. And I know I have made mistakes in the past, but I know that I love you. Even when we fight, it doesn’t last longer then a few minutes. I’ll make you laugh, and you’ll make me realize, that all the fights are stupid. I never ever forget the love. I can’t. You are so special to me. I love you very much.

Thanks for taking a chance on me.

Just another jagged thought by jason