Sometimes I don’t want to acknowledge what’s in front of me because what’s in front of me is what I don’t want and what I don’t need
Sometimes I don’t want to acknowledge what’s in front of me because what’s inside of me desires something different
And even though there’s something in front of me
I won’t make it happy
Because it won’t make me happy
I want what’s inside of me
Some think I’m lonely
Some think I’ve grown accustomed to Solitude
And I’m not bothered by mornings beginning with no one by my side
I need you to understand
Everything I need is inside and I drift and I dream and I manifest perhaps it will manifest
Or not
But what’s inside of me satisfies me and what’s in front of me will never
The rules of existence are settle
The rules of existence are do not end up alone
The rules of existence are compromise
The rules of existence are take what you can get
The rules of existence are sacrifice
I don’t live by rules
My law is enhance
My law is grow
My law is balance
My law is equality
My law is worship
I have not set my standards on unrealistic
I do not perceive myself to be impossible to catch or please
I am just a heart that sees very clearly from a point very far away from a trail of broken hearts
My own
Other’s
Others I’ve broken
Others that have broken mine
Others that have brought their broken hearts to me
Others that have cried with their broken hearts in their hands
Broken hearts do not ask me to settle for what’s in front of me
I know the work that I have done inside of me to keep my heart whole
And that gift
That gift that you yourself also behold is too precious to not love enough to protect to honor to receive for to give from
A true place
I do not acknowledge what’s in front of me the way it presents itself
What’s in front of me should accept that I will never see how it presents itself
My heart does not Translate its intention the way it intends
My heart communicates directly to my life
If I can’t make you happy then I can’t be your wife
And I may make you happy because I am the Apple in your eye
But please understand
You are not the tree I want to climb.
I also understand quite clearly that those I’ve wished to Crown
Did not desire My jewels
And I do not find that cruel
And I do not find myself unworthy
I just understand
So I hope you understand
That just because you’re what’s in front of me
Does not mean I should make you My Man.
My sweet sweet darling dear that’s just not the plan.
But thank you and I hope on your lap love lands.

 

Liza Zayas is a lover of writing and dancing and celebrates both as a singer and songwriter performing as Luna del Flor. You can hear her collaborative sounds and experience life through her storytelling. She invites you to dance. Her poetry seeks to initiate dialogue by intentionally expressing consequences of love, lust, ego and self-respect.

 

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