You felt too much like home so I had to move out and rebuild what homes felt like
That couldn’t be home
I couldn’t live in a burning house
I couldn’t live in a house with mold
I couldn’t live in a house with ceilings that were falling in on me
I couldn’t live in a house with glass all over the floors
I couldn’t live in a house with rodents
I couldn’t live in a house without food
I couldn’t live in a house that looks like you
It’s not you personally
I didn’t want to let go of
It was me
I know how much I miss the joy of creating happy
Through her
You could’ve been anyone
So don’t take it personal
I miss me

I miss Her
My Love
I love Her
My love

I mourned Her
That She that came from Me and presented herself to deceit
You on the Taking end could never comprehend
Her beginning

How she got to You
Her intent

She’s not Heaven sent
She’s Heaven’s descendent
Transcendent
A present
Celestial presence

I felt for Her
When you were asked to stay
In your rotten place
And to go she chose

No 2 loves are the same

That She couldn’t come back Home

To me

She would only wonder when she could feed your selfish beast
It made her happy to soothe a demon with hope he’d remember Home

They were never from the same seed

2 different trees

2 different species

Wrong lock
Wrong key

The bell stopped ringing

You couldn’t be Home
HOME wouldn’t tie back her wings or ask her not to sing
Her truth
Home’s inhabitants wouldn’t feel like a split duo
Or a tense duel
A hidden lie
A disguise

She entered the wrong House.

I mourned Her.

She makes me Happy

I’m not just anyone

My She She
Loves me too
Core based
Her
So she shows up with tools
To reinforce
Home

She doesn’t come Home

She is Home

A glorious garden welcomes me in
An open door
Hardwood floors for twirls
Stain glass windows decorating my body with rainbows

High ceilings that escort my dreams into reality
Silent nights when I sleep tight no rodents that bite
Midnight snacks by the stacks
Lots of health inside these walls

I miss nothing about toxic dust at all.

Buried completely for reincarnating
That Beautiful Swept She

Her Love will never tire
Dances in the Fire

Reborn so sweetly to continue living
As Inspired

Welcome Home Reborn.

You Deserve
LOVE IN YOUR HOME

 

Liza Zayas is a lover of writing and dancing and celebrates both as a singer and songwriter performing as Luna del Flor. You can hear her collaborative sounds and experience life through her storytelling. She invites you to dance. Her poetry seeks to initiate dialogue by intentionally expressing consequences of love, lust, ego and self-respect.