Tao of Consciousness: There is a Little Head inside My Heart

The day I could not find my mind
I moved all my books on “Theories of Consciousness”
to the fiction section
It is not hard to think or feel
the cold drops of rain touching your skin
or all the jungle-greens when decide to paint your eyes
or that feeling when your wife laughs at your lame jokes
all is real; something very vivid, very soul.
May be that what Bergeson opted to call “Prehension”
the hardest part comes
when you try to comprehend that flux
and make a mechanics out of it
you know it, but you don’t know how to talk about it.

The most immediate things are the hardest to comprehend
there is no physics of laughter and your love for beer
there is certainly no pituitary gland in your head that does all the thinking
neither I believe heart is the microprocessor of all the emotions
Consciousness is the most immediate given
but its calculus, contortions and calculations
I do not know.

Last time I was reading an eastern mystic
who claimed enlightenment changes the hardware of your brain
And a neuro-scientist who thought music can alter your head
I know not what “Enlightenment” is
but music gets me everytime ; through my heart , through my head ?
do I feel it at its nakedness ? or is it tinged with my pre-mediated thoughts ?
or are we just playing a futile Wittgensteinian’s Language game to no avail?
or have you considered the possibility
that the dualism of thought-feeling we have taken for granted
is itself wrong ?

There is Travis Scott playing softly on my machine
I look outside and the city is melting like a silver-ore
and a little heart
throbs inside my head
when I realize, there is a little head inside my heart.


Photography © TJ Edson

Photography © TJ Edson


Sudeep Adhikari, from Kathmandu Nepal, considers poetry to be an impersonal act, largely deriving its content from unconscious psychic undergrounds. His works have recently been featured in Verse-Virtual, Arlington Literary Journal, Zombie Logic Review, DEAD SNAKES, UFO Gigolo, Literary Yard, The Peregrine Muse, Soul-Lit Magazine and Novelmasters.

TJ Edson is the Art Director of Oddball Magazine and a volunteer at the Out of The Blue Art Gallery. He has also had work appear recently in Boston Compass.