Avoid false joy like you avoid triggers
False joys are little things hiding you from something bigger
Escapism removes the tools from the digger
Ironically creates a deeper cylinder
Inaction is action
A willing pause
I choose to sit and review every cause that has me lost
My tear ducts Niagra Falls strong
No one to blame I chose my Tango partners
No one to blame I forgive so it’s impossible
My forgiveness is a sympathetic peace
If you meant to hurt me that was what was meant to be
I rewrite the outcome by healing
I understand every mind is dealing
With triggers escapism and false joys
I want to walk these lands with no decoys
How I feel is shatter proof
Even under attack by sheepskin clothed wolves
I choose to feel no matter how much it hurts
I know you know the hurt
It’s why the choices exist: run numb or dig up from under the dirt
I know my Karma has been redirected
I’ve made decisions that harmed others while I was still deflecting
Myself from mirror reflecting
Self forgiveness is a consuming challenge
Even when the harmed bless your head with acceptance
Your Shadow lingers
I avoid false joys like I avoid triggers
Triggers can’t be controlled they’re unexpected visitors
You don’t have to let in
False joys however are sought out distractions
I choose to hurt to understand its source and change the course of my flow
When I feel myself drowning I choose to float not rush onto any boat
That’ll sail me away to Forget Island
Winds travel everywhere
You’ll be found
I choose to be sound
By allowing the deafening noise of hurt to wear itself out
See itself out
Then slowly recover from that bout.


Liza Zayas is a lover of writing and dancing and celebrates both as a singer and songwriter performing as Luna del Flor. You can hear her collaborative sounds and experience life through her storytelling. She invites you to dance. Her poetry seeks to initiate dialogue by intentionally expressing consequences of love, lust, ego and self-respect.