Every time I get flooded with memories
I grab my life jacket
You may be real but so is plastic

For as much as you lit up my dark nights
Your soul was too dark for your sight

Your danger is drastic

Imma be the reason you don’t get into heaven for putting me through hell

I fell in love with misery because it needed company and I felt bad for it
This venus flytrap caged me in with guilt
See
I was only trying to get misery to believe in its beauty
It was in love with its vanity
Rehearsed insecurity
I raged in disbelief
Misery loves company
And peace loves no memory

Of course I was your worst nightmare
You stole my sleep
Stole my peace
Held it tightly
Invaded my dreams
Of course I was impossible and cruel
Your hypocrisy vanity sensitivity
Did not activate
My naivete
Of course I was demanding and cold
You were not bold
Only desired the words from your soul
To be Law
I rebel
Of course I will be remembered as a mistake
Your fake
Failed
You left with a tucked tail

Misery seeking new company
Accepting the lie hurt less than anticipating a truth
You’re not the bad guy you’re just not the right guy
I’m not the bad girl I’m just not the right girl

Nothing would change that truth

Another’s karma is not yours to experience

Didn’t mean to interrupt your karma with my love
Sorry
I had to pack it up
See I realized before me was the crystallization of chosen
behavior
I another bridge burned so you can learn you’re choosing not to
learn
I gotta go
Your victimization is perfected
You got me self neglecting
To make sure your neck was protected

I was born a listener
So I never notice when I’m not being heard
I needed to be understood
I couldn’t find the words
To get your attention.

I went mute instead.

I almost forgot myself again.

So I rushed to the rescue
Knowing I had been assigned to myself
This time

I drowned in the 7 Seas all of those memories.

Life jacket floated me to land
I plant my white flag
Quite peacefully.
The gift of living new memories.

 

 

Liza Zayas is a lover of writing and dancing and celebrates both as a singer and songwriter performing as Luna del Flor. You can hear her collaborative sounds and experience life through her storytelling. She invites you to dance. Her poetry seeks to initiate dialogue by intentionally expressing consequences of love, lust, ego and self-respect.

 

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