“Wide Blue Skies and Wheat Fields and Blood,” © Bonnie Matthews Brock


Leaves that hold us up

There is them… and then, there is everyone else. Each one feels like a shadow or a dark splotch or a confusing ball of twine on a sacred space of light. This place is strange and bizarre.

It is like we are all homeless, without a home. Only time we are truly at home is when we are with God. And we never know which eyes God is looking at us through.

And we ask and we wonder what is the point of it all. Where are the rainbows and the puff baby blue socks that made us all feel like dancing? Like youth was eternally ours.
Where is that song that had us believe we were the undying peacocks with fancy feathers and wings defying gravity with a magnetic cosmic pulse.
How can we deconstruct the weight of sadness, the face of strife, the cruelty?
How can we grasp with each moment, the gift of time and the balance of shadow and light? How do we access a constant clear state of mind – purified, gleaming and in a state of letting go so that when we float, it’s effortless, and when we walk, it is ecstatic?
When we cry, let it be like sunshine releasing precious dew under the leaves that hold us up, that lead us to touch the magic of the glory and the sweetness of a butter cup.


Poet/Photographer Jennifer Matthews’ poetry has been published in Nepal by Pen Himalaya and locally by the Wilderness Retreat Writers Organization, Midway Journal, The Somerville Times, Ibbetson Street Press and Boston Girl Guide. Jennifer was nominated for a poetry award by the Cambridge Arts Council for her book of Poetry Fairy Tales and Misdemeanors. Her songs have been released nationally and internationally and her photography has been used as covers for a number of Ibbetson Street Press poetry books and has been exhibited at The Middle East Restaurant, 1369 Coffeehouses, Sound Bites Restaurant in Somerville and McLean Hospital.

Bonnie Matthews Brock is a Florida-based photographer, as well as school psychologist. She enjoys capturing raw single-capture photos of a wide variety of subjects, and learning and experimenting with shooting techniques such as long-exposure and intentional camera movement, as well as with editing methods. You can find Bonnie’s images on the covers of publications such as Ibbetson Street, Poesy Magazine, and Wild Roof Journal, and on the pages of Oddball Magazine, Beyond Words Literary Magazine, Ember Chasm Review, Beaver Magazine, and Unstamatic. Her works are archived at institutions such as Poets House NYC, Brown University, University of Buffalo, and Harvard University.