From the upcoming Train of Thought 2: Almost Home

 

I am re-born, my life maybe torn, I may have grown old.
The warmth has gone cold, but I am re: born.
Generated like a science age–
old,
but never told–
the science of self.
I learned today how much it takes for me to break down.

Learned today how to rebuild, in this world I live,
this mental dome, guarded by medicated angels,
each weathered word
passed down from me to her,
and she gets the finalized product, a project that
makes nothing seem like everything’s gone wrong.
But the truth is
I’m learning to live.

It was raining, pouring down the remains of the day
onto my borrowed umbrella, “I’ll promise I’ll give it back Marie.”
I said, and got up from my desk to leave.
I wrote on a notepad:

Today is a new day.

When I see it tomorrow,
it will make me smile.

It will put me in the right place.

I just need to learn how to slow to a crawl.

Then Grouch and Eligh rock the track and I’m back
to writing the truth,
I will let you know at the end of this book.

 

Jason Wright is the editor and founder of Oddball Magazine. His column appears weekly. His new book is Train of Thought.