Living with ADHD

 

I promise myself
I will do something
but don’t.

Too often
it seems
like breaking

promises
to myself
is what I do best.

I navigate
routes I don’t
follow,

try to
complete tasks
I don’t understand

and wait for
replies to letters
I did not send.

Then somehow
I did something
that became nothing

and did
nothing that
became something.

Baffled,
exhausted, swearing
to surrender.

I would promise
to stop,
give up,

cry and
stay locked
in tantrum mode,

filled with rage,
then return humbled,
bearing witness

to miracles
that surpassed
my greatest fantasies.

 

Janet Cormier is a painter, writes prose and poetry, and performs comedy. Janet prefers different and original over pretty. She loves collecting stuff, but cleaning not so much. Janet also talks to strangers. A lot. Her column appears weekly on Oddball Magazine.