“The Guest Touched by Light” © Bill Wolak

 

Reverse Cowgirl

I tell my husband when I am under 200 pounds I will get on top.
200 pounds comes and goes, then 190. I weigh 201 I tell him every day.
He knows I’m lying. I am afraid. What if I crush him,
what if he dies, my ass remaining monumental in girth
and in heft? I tell myself when I reach 180 I will be happy.
180 comes and goes. I am afraid. I will never be small enough,
I will never be brave enough, I will never sink onto him with
my full weight, confidently bouncing and gyrating, his eyes
adoring and filled with recognition of his luck. I want to
believe him when he tells me if I die, I die happy when he begs
me to sit on his face, but at the time of this writing, my husband
is alive and I remain on the bottom, safe and covered,
my husband living to be crushed another day.

 

Kelsey Stancliffe is a social worker and writer living in Morgantown, West Virginia. She has a daughter, a husband, and insurmountable student loan debt. She has submitted work to the Taco Bell Quarterly three times without success. It tortures her every day. Kelsey is currently getting her MFA from Converse University.

Bill Wolak is a poet, collage artist, and photographer who has just published his eighteenth book of poetry entitled All the Wind’s Unfinished Kisses with Ekstasis Editions. His collages and photographs have appeared recently in the 2020 International Festival of Erotic Arts (Chile), the 2020 Seattle Erotic Art Festival, the 2020 Dirty Show in Detroit, the 2021 Rochester Erotic Arts Festival, the 2018 Montreal Erotic Art Festival, and Naked in New Hope 2018. He was a featured artist in Best of Erotic Art (London, 2022).