It’s my Birthday today.
I’m a year into my 4th decade.
My makers, Rafael y Elvira, left us physically years ago and years apart, but they remain very alive in my heart.
I know my gratitude for their love, protection and imperfections will be with me for all of my existence, in any place or time, Ever.
I honor my siblings, my bloodline, my nephews and niece.
My son, Santiago, is my life’s greatest gift and I am grateful to his Father for all that he is and the love we share for the same person.
Santiago, you are Life and my birthday wish belongs to your Health and Happiness.
Bond above All.
My friends, from the ones who are now strangers to the ones who are still here, our memories are fossilized on our respective paths, conjoined at crossroads.
I value your individualities and support.
I have been your Sister with all of my heart.
Thank you.
Dancing and Music, thank you for being my Family.
My Spirit.
To the men I’ve held in my heart, Smoke.
Passion’s fire becomes ember until it’s ash.
Thank you for the good times above cracked foundations.
We tried.
To those who may walk with scars from my insecurities’ attacks, Sincerest Apologies.
It takes a bitch of a moment to realize how much of a bitch you can be in a Moment.
I am learned of imbalance, triggers, compassion, Pausing.
I never wanted to be anybody’s lesson.
I never wanted anyone to be mine.
Life does as it Wills.
They say it is how we learn and grow.
I speak on your Strength.
To the ones whose insecurities scarred me, I walk healed and speak for your healing.
Forgiveness brings people closer and closer sometimes means eternal exits.
Living is an uncontrollable force.
From late in my third decade on, life has been hardcore with my learning lessons and speaking their value to my Son, in hopes of protecting him, as my Parents tried their best to protect my mind, body, heart, soul, and future, even with their fears of the unknown.
I wear the Crest of their love proudly.
My personal point, in writing this and with Mi Vida is I continue to realize the true matters of this existence and I will not be blinded by the insignificant.
There is no ice in my veins or heart, no fade to my polish or bitter in my sweet.
I am an ongoing conclusion, equation, education, outcome to a continuous breath.
So long as my heart beats and my lungs produce air, my life is open to Life’s innumerable lessons, rewards, heartbreaks, accomplishments.
I am grateful, EVER GRATEFUL, for every single second.
Even the ones when harm was cloaking my existence.
Forgiveness.
Especially the ones when Love was making itself present.
Appreciation.
This life is Dedicated and I give Thanks for the Blessing it has been.
I’ve seen you Miracles.
I’m a Believer.
To 41 and the eternities we each are.
ASHE.
Liza Zayas is a lover of writing and dancing and celebrates both as a singer and songwriter performing as Luna del Flor. You can hear her collaborative sounds and experience life through her storytelling. She invites you to dance. Her poetry seeks to initiate dialogue by intentionally expressing consequences of love, lust, ego and self-respect
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