I’m a total disappointment
A pure scam
Who the fuck do I think I am
Going against your life’s plan?
I don’t stand up immediately
But my stance lands
It takes a while for me to raise my hand
Sometimes it takes that while for me to totally understand
Oh Shit
I’m about to get used
Oh Shit
They’re trying to leave me bruised
Oh Shit it’s a sabotage disguised as a loving mirage
A real ruse
Is it worth animosity?
I’m a piece of shit because I don’t fight
I just strike
Where you land after the blow is based on where you already were
Were you leading trying to hold me back?
Carry on with your horses in the air you know I’ve never cared
Were you behind trying to catch up?
Fall back with your attacks until you can keep up
Were you right by my side with tricks and trips?
To the farthest sideways go on with your bullshit
I’m such a loser because I don’t help winners win
I don’t sacrifice my morals for Prideful Sin
Happiness eluded
Relationships deluded
I guess my selfishness paid
I hope this is real I prayed
My peace of mind, the cost
Why did I stay? Find interest to play?
Believed in change
Or even Compromise
Different eyes see more than one prize
Shared vision is a lesson
Trying not to realize what’s been tossed
What’s forever lost
Because I didn’t succumb to another’s plot
Or accept the belief of what I thought
Learned to trust my vision
Threw precious time into a plot
While I let my core rot
Whacking and death dropping back into refreshed pots
Here’s the life:
A tree tall, rooted, strong
Sends through its branches winds of calm and song
So cool it’s hard to get enough of its touch
Here’s the life:
You question whether by cording branches its wind can maneuver sails for you instead of working on your row
You wonder if you wait for acorns perhaps you too will grow
So you shake branches not caring if they show signs of breaking
The life:
You want your breezes to be the only touch beautiful flowers experience
So your shade grows bigger to get The Tree out of the picture
The life:
Are we suppose to bend, bow or kneel to something with no right in its feel because you share the same field?
I’m a fucking loser who doesn’t do those deals
A real loner
Independent thinker
A fuck you in the eye stinker
Lady with a stinger
Softer than the weeping willow
If you’re killing me softly keep one eye open on your pillow
Spells I don’t blow into the wind
Live and let live
Karmic recycling
I just pray and wish I’m not confused again for firewood
If you’re going to take a look
Consider a home, a roof
While I protect from the root
Put your ax and machete down when you stand next to me
It may be inspiring
You can’t control the wind’s direction man
But you can enjoy your kite’s flight
Quit trying to carve works of nature into your Man’s Eyesight
I can be a breeze, a tornado or hurricane
Just enough, not enough or way too much
And I’ll disappoint you just the same.
Until it’s accepted I’m not here for anyone’s game, gain, fame, name or flame
Keep it Sane
Blessed by rain
Free of pain
Can you face not having your way and having no one to blame?
Can you be that brave?
Acceptance Saves.
Liza Zayas is a lover of writing and dancing and celebrates both as a singer and songwriter performing as Luna del Flor. You can hear her collaborative sounds and experience life through her storytelling. She invites you to dance. Her poetry seeks to initiate dialogue by intentionally expressing consequences of love, lust, ego and self-respect.
